I just read your final recap and I'm really emotional. I sort of feel likely it's the end of an era (a bit silly but true). Thank you for bringing fun and happiness to my life with your recaps. Whenever I saw you'd posted one, it always brightened my day.
Oh darling anon! You are so sweet this is so sweet!
And do I have good news for you: it’s not over at all. I have, mm, looks like half a dozen new DS9 posts planned already, and that’s before I start trying to cajole ~the community~ to come chat with meee. I AM SO READY 2 META.
I was literally sobbing by the end of the last DS9 recap!! I was going to try and rewatch it but I don't think my heart could handle it!
Fun Fact I rewatched just the very very last bit of the finale with Kira and Jake last night, and without any of the rest of the episode as build up just immediately started crying. Deep Space Niiiiiiine, my warm little home perched on the starry edge of space!
im in tears. ds9 is my favourite series ever. it’s like coming home to me. and i watched it when i was a kid. and then i rewatched it over and over again, every few years, but i can never see it for the first time again, you know? so thank you. seeing it through your eyes is like seeing it for the first time. and that means a lot to me. thank you. <3
I am just!! It warms my whole soul to hear this! I’ve somehow managed to position myself as a prism through which I try to refract the feelings something inspires out into the world in more clearly delineated colors, and it’s so gratifying to hear I might be doing that. Especially when something like the finale of Deep Space Nine whallops me like a huge feather pillow, and I mostly just feel like I’m lying there dazed on the ground unable to string a whole sentence together while little feather-feelings drift down around me.
oh god. I was just scrolling through my dashboard and I saw the first few sentences of your DS9 post. I realized this was it, this is the end. I started legitimately tearing up, clutching my hands to my face and trembling. I haven't even read it yet, but I wanted you to know how much it all meant to me. I love this show. I love this show SO MUCH. And god. It has been such a joy to watch you fall in love with it too. Thank you.
You beautiful shining comet, thank YOU <3 All this journey you’ve been with me, writing up faaabulous primers on each season and sharing your boundless enthusiasm and hilarious, brilliant thoughts every step of the way. I’m so grateful I can’t even say!!! This Treksperience would not have been half as magical without you and the rest of ~the community~, this is a fact.
THE MUSIC FOR MILES’S MONTAGE IS A CALLBACK TO TNG. (That is in all-caps because I am screaming.) The episode where he talks about his war experience and sings some of The Minstrel Boy.
I was lost at this for a moment because I was so sure that the music was an instrumental of ‘The Way You Look Tonight’, because I nearly commented on it. But then when I went to check I realized you mean THE FLUTE BIT which KILLED ME, and which you now tell me is a reference to that episode where we learned about the friend Miles lost on Setlik III, very quote:
“that fellow who always hung around you like a puppy”
I didn’t even love Deep Space Nineat the start. That may be one of my favorite things about this now, here at the end. I got attached gradually, more and more, a love that built over time until I’d grown so fond of it, so close, that at times it would almost seem we were completing each other’s frickinsentences.
Oh my show, my sweet space show, so strong and sure in its storytelling. It has been a steady hug when I needed it most, during times when the world and my own days were both filled with distress and despair. The people on this station experienced great traumas too, but it was boundlessly comforting to watch them navigate each tricky pass with such care and wisdom and heart. Their hope gave me hope, too.
I actually really like watching shows that have already concluded. I like the feeling of having seen the whole thing, and now having this complete world to play in. A show that’s no longer on the air is like a novel — you can look at it as one thing, hold it in your hands and see what the shapes of all the narratives truly were. It’s once I’ve finished a series that the most imaginative parts of my fan-mind finally let loose, spilling light into unexplored corners, drawing plans for how to shore up weak spots, bring a few pieces a bit tighter together, add a haunted attic, etc.
So this is the sort of space I was just tipping over into when Deep Space Nine gave me an ending. A capital letter Ending, achingly realistic. The series ended because the characters’ time together ended. The course of people’s lives change, they take new opportunities, they move away — and so ends the run of months, years if you’re lucky, when you were all together.
The finale is sad, oh it is so sad, and god I love it, I do. I love it for being so sad, and for being so natural, so recognizable, that now this is just my ending. No matter what else my thoughts will go back to fill in, all roads lead to the sea. To goodbye.
Which is probably what has landed me in just a very tender sort of story hangover with this one, walking around sheltering this warm, full, broken heart.
So I do hope you sweethearts will stick around as I feel I’m going to be in quite the state for a while!!
Tarra Treks: The Final Set of Watch-Notes
7x24 ‘The Dogs of War: Part 8’ - O’Brien: “Running a little late.” Sisko: “This is no way to start a relationship.” me: “do it” Julian, slipping into frame: “Hi Ezri.” haaaahahaha, they did it - Miles just keeping a steady eye on Julian awkwardly circling Ezri, oh Chief - Worf: “He is an overgrown child.” Miles:
everytime I check your blog I am FILLED WITH EMOTIONS. Mostly a mixture of eagerness to see if you've posted the finale and terror that you've posted the finale and it's over. You really have become one of my favorite series - I felt like this when I was reading Harry Potter or watching Leverage. Desperate to see what's next and just as desperate to never have it end
Oh friieeeennndd, THE EMOTIONS, they are Real and I too feel them A Lot. And this lovely message is just piling on new ones!!!
I will tell you the same thing I’ve been telling my own self: my finale write-up will not be the end, but the beginning. Once I’m caught up I’ll get to jump on into DS9 Content and PLAY AROUND IN THERE. I will have the entire series in my head and the whole range of screenshot options so will get to make Joke Posts and Sappy Graphics and Important Collections. I’ll be able to write much more sure-footed meta. I will be able to write…anything else my heart may so desire….. There is so much to come!
And fwiw, I can promise you that all of this will be coming AFTER this weekend, as I’m currently in the midst of three days of wedding and a funeral – so I’ll see you on the other side of *this* particular collection of emotions!
