I was just idly thinking about Charles Xavier’s telepathy recently, as I do, and being grateful for his fictional sake that he’s not a naturally anxious person. Because to be able to hear what everyone’s thinking all the time? That would be hell on social anxiety.
But then it DAWNED on me that perhaps those two things, his telepathy and his lack of social anxiety, might not be separately occurring features. One of the things I try to remember from studying psychology, is that most of us tend to over-estimate how much other people are thinking about us. It makes perfect sense that we would do this, given how much time we spend thinking about ourselves. We’re the ones in our heads, after all, privy to the full 100% of our wishes and screw-ups. But the thing is, everyone else is preoccupied more with their own existence, too. At the very base of it it’s probably just a numbers game — there are just so staggeringly more other people to be worried about, that you simply can’t be examining any of them as deeply or consistently as you are yourself. No one scrutinizes you as much as you do, but we so often feel like they might be, and that’s where the anxiety comes in.
And the thing about Charles, is that he would know this. He would have constant first-hand evidence of our blessed self-centeredness. Actually, this probably also ties in to something I tipsily floated to Kayt in that cocktail bar (hi, u remember), which is that everyone’s not lucky that Charles is a ~good person~, but rather, they’re lucky that he usually doesn’t bother looking into them at all. Did I just muddle up a major Charles flaw with a major Charles virtue why yes I did.